Sometimes It's Not That You Have Not Tried Hard Enough

But It's Really Just Not Meant To Be

Envy And Admire Is Sometimes What We Can Only Do

But Sometimes You Just Have To Be Contented With What You Have

And Not Always Compare What You Don't Have

I Like This Phrase
From A Drama That I Am Watching Now

"We Can't Always Hang On To Yesterday And Hope For Tomorrow
Today, Now, This Moment
Is What's The Most Real"

It's Such A Mix Feeling

Well, 5 Months Plus Had Pass
So Much Event Have Taken Place, Things Have Changed
Done Things I Always Wanted To Do, And Then Hope For The Best

A Lot Of Times I Would Really Like To Say This
That Is
We Got To Face It, The Real Fact In Life
What Happen Had Happened
From The Failure Learn From It, And If Success Improve On It
How To Become A Better Person, Not Only For Those Around You, But For Yourself
Looking Back At Now How The One That You Choose Is Living Well,
Getting Better, Happier, You Know That At Least You've Never Made The Wrong Choice
And Of Course You Yourself Gotta Live Better For Him Or Her To See


If You Can't Be Together
You Just Have To Give In

只要心理还存者不甘心
就还不到放弃的时候

爱一个人不是因为他是谁
而是在他的面前你可以是谁
即使不小心曝露了自己不美好的一面
他还是可以无条件接受
这就是真爱

If Something That You Did Does Not Work Out Right
From That Failure You Must Learn, Make Improvement
And Become Stronger
Isn't That Good?

真的
如果没有经历过失去
就永远不知道
曾经拥有的是多么珍贵的东西

Although I Have No Idea What Had Happen
May Not Be The One Who Understand You The Fullest
I Know You Won't Say Anything
And I Have No Right To Interfere Anymore
But I Just Wanna Tell You
Everyone Has Their Lowest Time
Maybe It Could Be Long
But I Believe Eventually It Will Be Better
Being Strong Is Good
But Putting A Strong Cover Does Not Help
There's Someone Still Care
I Think There's Only This Much I Could Say
Please Take Care

Kaiden

There Are So Many People In This Mother Earth
But
How Many Of Them Can You Truly Found

Someone That You Can Really Chat With
Just About Anything Under The Sun
Whatever Differences You Have
No Matter Where You Are

Someone That You Can Really Relay On
Knowing That No Matter What Happen
Be It Big Or Small
He Or She Will Be There For You

Someone That You Love
But
You Two Just Can't Be Together
You Can Only Wish That He Or She Will Found Happiness


Love Is The Condition In Which The Happiness Of Another Person Is Essential To Your Own

I Am Glad To Say That
At Least


I Suddenly Have Some Many Target, Dream, Objective, Direction, Mission In Life
Moving On With Prospective.........
A Life With Purpose Everyday
That's It (:

I Am Always Tidying Up My Room
Throwing Away My Memories Bit By Bit
I Had This Habit Of Keeping Receipt
Only Those That Has Significant Meaning To Me
So That When I Tidy My Room Again
I Will Recall What Happen That Day, With Who
That's The Way I Keep And Recall Those Beautiful Memories
Unique Or Weird You Can Call It

Today I Finally Started Saving
Putting Aside Part Of My First Full Time Pay
To Save For The Future And In Case Of Emergency
That Is Also Part Of My Memories
Which Someone Once Explain So Hard To Me Before
The Importance Of Saving

And Finally I Got My Posting
Posted To Sembawang Air Base
One That I Always Hope I Will Get Into
So That...

But Now
Anywhere Will Do


I Can't Wait For My Flight Suit!!!

For The Past 3 Days
I Had Learn A Lot Value
Which
For The Past 21 Years
I May Not Have Learn

I've Find A Lot More Meaning In My Life
The Reason For Me To Be Here, What I Am Doing
It's Not Just About Value, Integrity Or Pride

I've Meet People
Who
Went To War Zone
Experience Life And Death
And Live Through To Tell Me Their Story

Here We Are
In Out Comfort Zone
But Out There
It's Totally Different

National Service
National Security
Without Security
What Will Happen To Us
Think Again

A Very Strong Sense Of Mixed Feeling
Playing
Inside My Mind
Which
I Just Can't Help
Keep
Thinking Of You

Even
Just Sitting Down Right Here
Everywhere
I Go
Whatever
I Do
In Camp
Or
At Home

Is All These A Dream?

I Wish I Could Have Tell You More

It Was A Hell Of A Long 3 Weeks Training!
Finally Book Out, But Gotta Book In Later On...
Just Like A 3 Weeks Of Confinement
Days After Days Of High Key Training
Din't Really Had A Good Rest
Never Being Laying On My Own Bed For The Past 2 Weeks!

But At The Same I Had Lot's Of Fun With My Section Mate
Where Else Can You Find This Type Of Shit, Fun In Outside Job
You Go To Outfield, Dig Your Own Self Scrape
Sleep In That For 2 Night With Heavily Rain
Shoot A Grenade, Rocket Launcher, Live Round
Experience Tear Gas, Wear A Chemical Suit
Listen To Real Life Experience, Joke Around

This Chapter Of Journey In Army Has Taught Me Many Skills
Leadership Skills Is The Main Focus
It's Does Not Only Help Me In My Army Career
But Also Apply In My Daily Life
It's Makes You More Confident, Competent
Plan And Execute Idea And Works You Have

And During This Short One And A Half Month
I Have Think More Than I Usually Do
I Have The Time And Opportunity To Reconsider
What I Have Being Doing For The Past
What I Am Doing Now
And What I Am Going To Do For Future
My Dream, My Plan, My Target

Also During This Period Of Time
I Have Seen Thu The Other Side Of Me
The True Leo Personality
One That It's Always In Me
The Weak Point And The Strong Point Of Me
Some Say I've Change, But Change Is Forever
A Good Or Bad, You Have To Compensate

Never Mind If You Have Failed Once
Or Even Twice
As Long As You Never Give Up
Learn From The Mistake
And You'll Realize
Failure Does Not Only Makes You Stronger
But Also Makes You To Become A More Successful Person As Well

It's Really Fast
Everything Passes So Fast That You Don't Have Time To Breath
In Just Another 2 Weeks Time
I've Gotta Change Camp Again
To Another Level Of Training
Another Group Of Friend, Colleague
Another New Environment

Not Forgetting All Of Those Friends, Classmate, Colleague That I Have Meet
I Have Being Thinking About Them As Well
From Macdonald, IKEA, GV To USS
Mei Chin, New Town, Simei To SP, CTPP
Photography Club, Culture Club
Many Memories Were Created
How I Wish I Could Buy Time
To Make More Time For Them
Or Even Go Back To The Past
To Amend Things That I Have Regretted
Having Saying All That
Of Course Moving Forward Is The Only Positive Way To Do It

Looking At Those Facebook Photo
Photo Of My Classmate, Friends Graduating
I Feel So Much Happy For Them
As Thou I Am The One Graduating As Well
Someone Had Told Me That Studying Is Always The Best Time Of Your Life
And I Always Believe That

I Have Once Told Myself That I Have Not And Will Not Regretted Making The Choice
To Quit School, Go For My Army First
Although I Do Feel Sad That I Could Not Graduate With My Batch Of Classmate
But Making This Choice Is The Way That Works For Me, At Least, I Hope

Something Just Don't Seems To Be Right
Everyday Of This Hour
I Just Can't Seems To Sleep
Until I Can Even Use Laptop @ This Hour To Blog
Perhaps
I Am Already Used To It

What Can I Do?


Moving On Is Only Part And Parcel Of Life
And Sometimes We Don't Have A Choice

Life In Camp Is Getting Much Interesting
After Being Appointed As LSC And LPS For The First Week
And Then LSM For The Second Week
Conducting For CPT1
Plus Flag Party
And Much More FUN Training

I Can Say I Really Learn A Lot Of Thing Just For This Three Weeks Alone
Managing A Group Of People Is Really Not Easy At First
You Are In-Charge Of All 150 Cadet, Their Welfare
Plan For The Schedule, Order Them To Get Thing Done
And Of Course A Lot Behind The Scene Job, Scolding, Lesson Has Being Learn
Plus Your Own Personal Problem
It's Really Another Level Of Stress And Experience For Me
At Least I've Made It Thru!! (:

Moving On Is To Look Forward To My Next Stage Of New Life @ Air Force
Just Can't Wait For Mid Of June!
I Already Have So Much Plans :P
Anticipating With Excitement!!!

Looking Back For The Past One Year
Looking Back At What I Was Doing At That Time
Look Back At My Friends

I Felt
So Different
So Unfamiliar

We All Had Really Grown A Lot
So Much Thing Have Ever Since Changed Or Happen
Whichever For Good Or Bad

For My Life
It's A 270 Degree Changes
The Way I Live My Life Is So Much Different From A Year Ago

I Still Don't Know If It Were Consider To Be A Good Or A Bad Change
I Think It's Better To Be Myself A Year Ago
Even My Mum Say I've Changed
She Say I Used To Be So Outgoing, Cheerful, Happy
I Guess I Have Think Too Much For The Past Year
It's Time For A Change

I Know You Don't Want It Either
I Know You Got No Choice Also
I Guess I Just Have To Learn How To Let Go
Let Go Of All The Miserable, Stress, Tiredness

休息是為了走更長遠的路


I Should Be Fine
I Really Admire You Even More Now
Even Thou It's Hard For You Yet You Can Overcome It So Fast
Thanks For All The Sweet Wonderful Memories!
I'll Never Forget Them!

Take Care!
Baby

You Break My Heart So Deep
Into Million Pieces
That It Hurts So Painful

You Come Into My Life
And Go Away With A Stupid Reason
Is Out Relationship Really That Fragile?

I Really Can't Accept The Fact For Us To Break Up Is Because Of Your Dad
If The Reason Was I Am Not Good Enough For You
I Have No Time For You
I Can Accept

You Can't Just Give Up On Us So Easily
I Know It's Stressful, It's Tiring For You
You Are The One Who Will Be Going Through All Of These

Since Day 1 Onward, I Know Something Like This Would Happen
I Have Choose To Accept It Because I Know You Will Also Face It Together With Me
But
YOU ARE NOT EVEN TRYING HARD AT ALL!
I FEEL SO DISAPPOINTED

I Am Feeling So Miserably Sad

I am now officially a regular
Which means I will be earning monthly pay soon
With that I will and need to have more responsibility, discipline
Managing money, time, family, relationship, friends and my job
Saying about it now, I need to seriously plan it through now

Money

I always wanted to save money
But saying and thinking is always easy than doing it
So first thing is to set aside my monthly pay for saving
Starting with my first regular pay

Time

Weekend is all I got for now
Thus I need to plan where I want to go beforehand

Family

As far as I could, support them with the pay that I've got for now
Spend time with them, eat with them

Relationship

I will tend to put relationship to my priority
Whenever I have time I would like to spend it with her
She's my main motivation, my source of energy and reason to move on and do my best

Friends

Friends is important too, but as for now, unless special occasion then can try to make it

Job

Is what I need to focus on, learn as much as I could and make it thru


Kaiden ALL THE WAY!!!

So Fast It's Coming To The End Of My 1 Week Block Leave
But Never The Less It's The Most Fun, Relax Of My Week Ever This Year
Went To Eat Nice Mee Rubus, Mee Hoon Goreng, Roti Prata, Murtabak, Chou Dou Fu, Dou Hua!
Best Of All I've Get To Meet Baby Everyday!


If Only I Had More Money :(

It's Being A Great 2 Months!!! :)

Finally It's Drawing Near To My End Of BMT
Finish All The High Key
Achieved My IPPT Gold

Still Remember When I Just Enlisted
Watching Others Company Singing POP Song
Practicing Their POP Parade
How I Wish I've Reached That Stage

And After 3 And A Half Month
Of Training, Shit, Everything
2 More Weeks To POP
It's Finally Out Turn

But I Just Can't Bear To End It
It's All The Brotherhood That Count Now
Of Course I Still Can't Wait For My Book Out
Every Week Of Excitement

5 Days Of Outfield Is Really Awesome La
You're Not A Real Solider Unless You Being To Outfield
That's What My Sergeant Always Say
And It's Really What I Am Feeling Right Now
I Don't Quite Believe It Either At First But Now I Truly Understand What He Meant

Thought I Can Adapt To The Environment And Training Easily
But People That You Miss Is What That Keeps You Going
And I've Got To Say Ration Food Is Nice!
Although A lot Of My Friends Say It's Taste Bad
Other That That, My Outfield Weather Is Really Good
No Rain, No Hot Sun, Always Cool!

And So Long Yet So Fast
Left With Only 5 Weeks Of BMT Till POP
Really Gotta Miss All Of Them Soon
Outfield Really Bond One Another Closer


It Really Makes Me Worry To See You Doing This To Yourself, Please Don't Do It Again!
Although It's Your Nature Reaction, But I Know You'll Try Hard To Kick This Habit

Although I Might Had Play All Those Ride At USS For Countless Number Of Times
But Yesterday Visit Is Definitely A Special One With That Special Someone!
Had Lots Of FUN and Laughter
It's A Good Start ((:

Great That You Enjoy Yesterday, Thou It Might Be A Present, But To Me It Holds Alot Of Responsibility And Commitment,
And I Will Definitely Work Hard And Put In Effort To Keep It Going.

20 Days Since I Last Blog, I Should Say It's Very Happening In Army!

1st Thing I Would Like To Say Would Be My First Live Firing!!!
Although It's Not As Excited As I Would Have Expected
But It's Was Quite An Experience For Me!
SAR21 Is Indeed A Powerful Rifle!
But The Recoil Is Not As Strong As I Thought It Was
But Still I Was Lucky Again To Be Chosen To Be The First To Try Out!

Next Up Would Be My IPPT Test For Today!
Could Say I Have Confident To Get A Gold Before I POP
Just A Few More Chin-Up And 20 Sec Faster In 2.4km Would Get Me There!

And Yesterday Our Company Had Out First Canteen Break!
Thou This Might Sound Nothing
But A Canteen Break In Tekong Means Heaven!!! LOLS
We Share Roti-John, Carrot Cake, Nuggets, Chew Siew Mee, Meggi Mee And Lots More!
It's Was A Stomach Filling Finally In Tekong!!

Below Is Some Few Weeks Ago Posts Which I've Yet To Post
Here They Are:

1st Sat RT And Book Out
It's Really Sian Lo, Need To Book Back In A Few Hour Later!

But Anywhere, I Should Say It's An Wonderful Week For Me In Tekong
An Experience That I'll Never Forget!

On Monday Morning RO, Platoon Sargeant Called My Name
He Said, You're This Week Platoon IC
First Thing In My Mind Was, I Din't Even Know All Those Malay Command
How In The Hell Am I Suppose To Do Those Job???

Truefully Speaking, I've Being Thinking Of Being A Platoon IC Before
I Am Preparing To Be One, Learning Those Command
Inspired By NDP Parade Of Those Commander Giving Them Command
And Be Able To Take Charge Of The Whole Platoon Or Even Company
It's Awesome La! And Fun!

But I Wasn't Prepare To Be My Turn That Fast!!!
I Told Him, Can I Skip This Turn And Be The Next One Instead
He Just Say, Too Bad, You've Got No Choice

What To Do, I've Just Gotta Accept The Fact That It's Fated
And I Am Going To Give My Best Shot No Matter What

I Can Tell You The First Two Day Is Really Damn Stressful For Me!!!
Memorizing Those Couple Of Malay Command
Taking Charge Of Them
Making Sure Wherever We Go, Nobody Missing
Always Got To Report This And That
Shouting At Them To Hurry Up, Double, Don;t Be Late Etc...

But From Day 4 Onward
The Fun Begin! Haha
You Know The Command Well, Expected What Will Happen
As You Get Used To What You Are Doing
Then You Can Start To Play With Your Platoon!

Remember Last Day Of My Duty
While Marching Back To Coy Line
They Were Suppose To Turn Right
I Purposely Give Them The Left Command
And Surely Some Of Them Just Follow Motion, Never Listen To Command
And Turn The Wrong Way, End Up Getting Scold By The Sergeant Lol


I Can't Wait For My BMT Phase To Come
Then Will More Challenge Come
More Training, More Things To Learn
Just 2 More Months To Go
I'll Definitely Gonna Miss My Platoon Mate And All Those Shit We've Got Thru So Far :)

Anticipating......

It's An Long And Fun Day Today!
Meet Evangelyn, Yuchun, And Alfred
For Breakfast, High-Tea, Lunch, Dinner, And Dessert!!!
We Ate So Much Different Food Altogether!
Curry Puff, Fried Carrot Cake, Ice Kachang, Porridge And More!

Before That Watched The Ghost Must Be Crazy
While Eating Shilling XXL Chicken And Tempura
Funny But Bit Short And Lame Show

Then Had A Little Walk At Chinatown
Meet A Interesting Aunti Pat
She Collect Collectible And Some Of Her Collection Is Cool!
Had A Long Talk With Her, But Nice Talking To Her
Like The Way She Spend Her Retirement
Going To Help Those Who Need Help While Doing Things She Enjoy
How Great Will That Be!!!

Enjoyed Today Alot (=

2010 Is A History
2011 Will Be A Good Start

No More Working Life
Now Will Be Army Life
And Till Now
I Can Say Army Life Is Great!

Not To Worry About Food, Sleep
Everyday Workout, That's Good For Health
And I've Got A Bunch Of Fun Bunkmate, Sergeant, Sir!

Yesterday Sort Of Celebrate 2011
Thou Din't Really Had Alot Of Fun
But I've Enjoy It (:

Looking Forward To Every Bookout!
So I Can Meet Them!

Happy 2011 Everyone!!!